Pete and Repeat

Sometimes life feels like the Pete and Repeat story/joke/whatever that growing up was so fun to tell people. For old times sake all together now ' Pete and Repeat was sitting on a log (or whatever you wish). Pete fell off, who is left?' Then would come the excited anticipation of the other person to say Repeat and you could start all over again. That will be one of those things that I can tell when I get in the nursing home and will have people shaking their head thinking poor woman is delirious again. Now to the point of bring that up in the first place, sometimes I feel like I'm stuck, not only in my comfort zone but in a monotonous cycle. Get up, go to work, go home, (the only part that could change) read/write/watch TV, try to sleep, finally sleep to wake up fighting with the alarm clock and start the cycle all over again. I don't want to live my life like that only to get old and look back and think that's how I took advantage of the life I've been given. If nothing else but sitting outside enjoying the weather more (when the weather decides to stay warm) or I want to find new places to go and take pictures. It's not only what I do but how I think that seems to be keeping me in this cycle. There is a song called Words by Hawk Nelson that I heard recently and it reminded me that I need to be more aware of what I say, to others as well as what I think to and about myself. I don't ever want to purposefully (or even unintentionally) say something to hurt someone's feelings, or hinder them in anyway. I know how it is for someone to tell you something that hurts your feelings and/or degrades you and how easily it is for those statements to stick with you longer and be the loudest ones on repeat in your mind. I hope either I will see when I'm saying what I shouldn't and I can fix it before it's to late or someone will point it out. I don't mind being told I'm in the wrong, or I need to change something about myself, I do however very much dislike it when people gleefully point it out, like they was just waiting for you to mess up to call you out and laugh at you while putting on the front they are helping you. Ain't nobody got time for dat! Lastly, I am fairly certain I am on a Pete and Repeat cycle with this blog and probably have repeated myself so many times. Hopefully not but if so maybe eventually I'll repeat myself enough to help and get me where I need to be or get whatever it is completely out of my mind. This could be awhile though. I finally started getting all of my writings organized and written in one notebook and while finding those I found other things I'd written. Isn't it funny to find things you've written in the past and see where you was and where you've come from after the situation had passed. Actually it doesn't even have to be about something you are going through because I found my first poem I wrote and then re-reading the most recent ones I realized I was doing better at writing them....not to sound conceited and say my writings are all that cause that most definitely is not the case. Anyway, final thoughts for this post is I am making a promise to myself to be more watchful of the words I say and going to find some things to change up my schedule/life to make sure I don't get stuck in a Pete and Repeat cycle. Now to try and take a break from writing so many posts.